Tag Archives: relationships

Someone call the papers!

I mentioned in a previous post that I was attempting online dating again and that I might be meeting up with a guy from one of the sites. Well we did end up meeting up, and things have gone really … Continue reading

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All I Ever Wanted, All I Ever Needed

I want to write about about a dream that I had a while ago. Now I’m not usually one for analysing my dreams, but in this case, I think it’s obvious what the different aspects of the dream symbolise. I … Continue reading

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To Be Someone Else…

What would it take for you to notice I am a heart on fire, and all the world’s a fuse So don’t get close Trouble and the worth Am I better off on my own? – ‘Methadone’ by Rise Against I … Continue reading

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CBT or bust

Yesterday, I saw a psychologist for the first time in nearly two years. I know the script by now. You sit in a drab, depressing waiting room, which looks as if its wallpaper and furnishings haven’t changed since the 1960s, … Continue reading

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Spiralling

I’m waiting for my moment to come I’m waiting for the movie to begin I’m waiting for a revelation I’m waiting for someone to count me in ‘Cause now I only see my dreams in everything I touch Feel their … Continue reading

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Avoidant Personality Disorder?

For over 2 years now, I’ve suspected that my SA and depression may actually be symptoms of an even bigger problem – avoidant personality disorder (AvPD). I know that I shouldn’t self-diagnose, especially when it comes to a personality disorder, … Continue reading

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What is there to celebrate?

It’ll be my 21st birthday in 2 weeks. Since the age of about 14, I’ve hated my birthday because it serves as a painful reminder that I have no friends or a boyfriend to celebrate it with. It also reminds … Continue reading

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The Random Post – Part 1: The Negatives

This is going to be one big post about a bunch of different things – mostly worries and recent achievements – related to social anxiety. I’ll try to get the more negative things out of the way first. ******************************************************************************** My … Continue reading

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Down

“All alone! Whether you like it or not, Alone is something you’ll be quite a lot.” – Dr Seuss. Over the last couple of weeks, I’ve been feeling very down again. For some reason, that’s always the pattern I seem … Continue reading

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Who am I and what am I doing here?

I’m a creep, I’m a weirdo, What the hell am I doing here? I don’t belong here Cue one big, jumbled rant… I don’t feel like a person – I feel like the empty shell where perhaps once, a long, … Continue reading

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